Monday, October 6, 2008

Day 26--Driven

Driven

 

With all the things I have to do, all the responsibilities I’ve accumulated in the past few years, with the café, and my husband, and my family…I’m driven to save this journal.

 

Of late, I have barely had two hours a week to invest in the writing I so love, and have so missed. Now, I spend four or five hours a day, copying, pasting, saving. 

 

As soon as the danger became known, there was never any question.

 

Never any thought that I wouldn’t find the time.  Never an ounce of consideration given to just letting it go because I would not find the time, in my real life, to deal with this.

 

Because this, this journal, has been such a huge part of my life for the last five years.

 

In many ways, and on many occasions, it has BEEN my life.

 

Or saved my life.

 

So, yes, I have AO-hell to thank that my world has been turned upside down.  And that an additional dire deadline is hanging above my head.

 

And I have them to thank that I will spend the next 26 days more stressed, more sleep-deprived, more desperate that I would have otherwise been.   Something I definitely did not need.

 

But  I will not let my words disappear at the whim of…well, who knows whom.

 

Thanks AOL.  Thanks for treating us like negligible, expendable crap.

 

It’s the American Way, is it not?

8 comments:

  1. Sadly Lisa, it seems the way we are treated here has become the American Way.  I don't know how we can collectively change that mentality.  And I hate it.

    Good luck transferring all that data.  The most I've been able to do is copy the journal to my hard drive and as time allows ... you get my drift.

    I'm very sad about all the time and effort 'lost' but I've decided that having these friendships are so important it's been worthwhile IN SPITE OF AOL's lousy treatment.

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  2. I agree with your sentiments regarding aoHell ~ I feel they have let us down badly ~ but hopefully we will soon get to like perhaps even love our new Home ~ Ally x

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  3. Its too bad that aol doesn't allow up to 500 posts to show the way that Blogger does.

    Then it would be a piece of cake to copy the page into a pdf or or jpg format and then post that to the new location. At the very least, the archive could be saved on a person's personal computer for later posting elsewhere....

    AOL people are the best....but the service has been going downhill for years.  

    I wonder how long we will even be able to keep our e-mail accounts now.

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  4. And all the times I have read how you were struggling to keep doing this.  Weird how your feelings changed when you thought the whole thing would go away. Well, actually, I guess the whole thing IS GONNA GO AWAY.  But, I think that answers all your previous questions you've had about keeping a journal.  Your reaction to want to save it should tell you it is helping you, whether you know it or not.  And it helps the people that read it too, although you don't see that or know that on a regular basis.  msb

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  5. I am having a hell of a time figuring out how to move my journal to Blogger. I may have to move it all to word and go from there.
    Damn AOL.

    Michelle :)

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  6. Wow! It works? Will wonders never cease? Yippee!

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