I shouldn't have taken today off. I should have spent the day joyously immersed in my new life. I should not be sitting here feeling the old hurts.
I don’t know why I’m melancholy today. I can’t exactly look back at the past year and think it wasted, or boring, or unchallenging. It has been a great year, a year of mires and pits and lots of holes in the road and yet I have made amazing progress along that road.
But it’s my birthday. And I’m all alone. Away from my family…which is nothing new. But this is the year that the separation was completed. Those last remaining ties—the ones that were so painful and so strong, and seemed like they would never come loose—have been neglected into oblivion. Buried under the crazy busyness of making a dream come true.
I should be happy. It doesn’t hurt anymore. At least, not every day.
Only on days like today.
Happy Birthday Sweetie! I hope the day becomes better for you! I so understand how you feel as I often experience the same damn thing on my birthday. It's tough! Hang in there! Hugs, Lisa
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Lisa. Don't look back!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Lisa.
ReplyDeleteYou've had an incredible year and faced many difficult obstacles. I hope this coming year goes more smoothly, and affords you more time for yourself and your loved ones. You deserve it.
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Kat
Happy Birthday ~ you have come a long way this past year ~ no time to look back ~ just look forward ~ more great times lay ahead ~ just a lovely smooth road with no pot holes ~ Ally
ReplyDeleteToday is the day you recognize the long and painful ties were meant to go.
ReplyDeleteYou'r e alone on your birthday but I suspect that was your choice. You could have gone to your business where you are somedays miserable (it's all good) and other days not, but you needed to be alone today.
So, at the risk of not saying the right thing, "Happy Birthday Lisa! With many more meaninful and joyful birthdays to follow."
Happy Birthday. I really need to keep better track of birthdays and things. I hope you have a good day.
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Happy Birthday Lisa, remember "Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans". Enjoy, Embrace and Live life to the fullest.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, Lisa! You've had quite the year, my dear. Please take some time to realize and appreciate fully all you've accomplished in the year past. I admire your tenacity a great deal. Cheers!
ReplyDeleteI missed your birthday! Well, happy next day -- in your NEW life, the one in which you are doing exactly what you need to do to be who you are.
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Happy belated Birthday, Lisa! And remember, you have a new "family" of friends here in the blogosphere who look forward to what you write and wish you the best.
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Oops ~ missed your birthday! I'm sorry if it was melancholy ~ I had thought you were getting along with your sisters now. I've come to the conclusion that all birthdays after a certain age are tinged with melancholy, regardless of circumstances.
ReplyDeleteSo Happy...Several Days Later!