And The Universe Said, "Don't Go There..."

I have to apologize to Robin. I told her I was going to blog on a topic she brought up in her advent blog, Praying Advent Through Darkness. The subject was the concept of being a “person for others,” a sort of commentary on the character of Joseph in the Christmas story.

Unfortunately, when I sat down to write about it, I had to reach to depths of self-examination, and the resultant self-loathing, to which I dare not go right now. I am going to need all the positive mental ions I can corral to get me through the next six months. I cannot afford to indulge in soul-searching and self-reproach, even if it has nothing to do with the restaurant and its demise (though it seems there is little in my life these days that DOESN’T have to do with that…)

Suffice it to say that I understand that I am so NOT “a person for others;” but I can go no further right now than a sort of passing nod to that not being a good thing. And perhaps file it away to work on when I have the time and the luxury to beat myself up over what I am not.