I don't know which dismays me more: Last Friday night's events in Paris, or the
thoroughly disgusting very public reaction of right-wing America.
I mourn with those in Paris who have lost loved ones.
But, I think I mourn more profoundly for the loss of the
country that, despite all her problems and upheavals, I once deeply loved.
Because, in the first few decades of my lifetime, though she
was hampered by a checkered past, the United States of America honestly seemed
to be on the path toward becoming some facsimile of what the founders hoped she
could be.
Lurching out of the xenophobic, frankly racist and fear-riddled
first half of the twentieth century, the next decades brought some real social
progress: civil rights for blacks, equal rights for women, the peace movement... I grew up during those decades. That was the country I knew and loved: the
one that was moving forward, eye on the prize.
We imagined a utopia, and we aimed ourselves toward it. If the progress was only infinitesimal, it
was progress.
The thought that all that could go away...that every inch of
progress we made could and would be
battered and hamstrung; bombed, bad-mouthed and pistol-whipped into retreat...never
entered my mind.
I look at this country: at the absolute trash vying for the
privilege of running for the highest office in the land; at the us vs them, no compromise, "with
us or against us" state of our federal government; at the vile things everyday people will say
and post and tweet, to and about anybody or anything; at the atmosphere of hatred and greed and
aggression and uncontrollable consumerism that has invaded every aspect of our
lives...
And my heart...just...wails.
I honestly feel as if I have fallen through the looking
glass. I have no idea where I am. This can NOT be America.
We didn't just lose our moral compass. We threw it in the sewer and pissed on it.
I'm sure there will be those who will say, "If you
don't like it, why don't you just leave?"
Actually, I never had
the opportunity to choose to leave my country.
It left me first.
I agree completely. It is disgusting, discouraging and impossible to fathom. We are seeing the absolute worst in people.... the fear, racism, protectionism, provincialism, and complete overreaction to the world's events. What is wrong with us? I am beginning to understand how the holocaust came about.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great post, and I share your despair. If I were younger, I would leave. Dunno where I'd go; I think probably Europe, although of course Europe is not without problems of it's own, but at least I'd be away from the endless guns and anger and violence that seems to be found everywhere in America today. But my children and grandchildren are here, and I'm 66, so I think I'm here for the duration.
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