Sunday, September 28, 2003

Doing stuff together

Well, as much as yesterday was a success, today wasn't.  Had to go down to Corvallis to check out a festival's possibilities for the business.  I thought we were having a good time.  Husband, apparently, didn't.  Disappeared the minute we got there, and spent most of the time wandering around by himself, calling me every ten minutes on the cel phone to try to figure out where I was.  When I asked him later what was up with that, he told me how he thought we were just going to check out the business aspects of this festival---NOT spend the afternoon strolling around the craft booths.  I asked him if he thought we were going to drive two hours to get down there, meet my sister, and then leave after a half hour.  So that started a fight. I told him I have no idea what he likes to do anymore...mostly it seems that sitting around watching tv for hours on end when he's not working is good enough for him.  He got mad at me about that, asking his usual "What do you want from me???" crap.  Well, I'm not sure exactly what I want, but I know I don't want to feel like I'm living alone.  I feel like all I do when he's home is try to stay out of his way and not make him feel like I'm bugging him to spend "quality" time with me.Which IS what I'd like, come to think of it.  But if he DOESN'T want to, what would really be the point?  Once again, I'm left to feel like I need to get a life.

1 comment:

  1. You know what, mlraminiak? Swing by my place at http://journals.aol.com/andreakingme/Unhinged/entries/127 and take the Myers-Briggs test. After you wade through the 60-odd questions (no way to get around that, but it's free), you can learn what profile is best suited to yours. Couldn't hurt. Might help.

    About marriage . . . it sure is about walking around egos sometimes, isn't it? Alas.

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