Here's My Heart

 

I would like to welcome anyone who has visited "Coming To Terms…" on Alphawoman1’s recommendation. Mary and I have been keeping up with each others’ journals almost since they dug up the foundation thereof…I think Mary first commented here on October 9, 2003. My journal was a little less than one month old.

I have had a, shall we say, tenuous? relationship with the AOL editors almost since I began my journal. I tend to be…not too nice to them. In return, they tend to ignore me. Sort of a "don’t ask, don’t tell" relationship. I suppose it could be worse. They haven’t "tos’d" me or accidentally deleted my journal. But I think they tagged me as, "Don’t mess with that one…she bites!" Which has been fine with me. So, the "Guest Editor" program was the ONLY way I was ever going to be an editor's pick. And I am honored and humbled to have made it to the list of a guest editor of the stature and intelligence of Aphawoman1. Thank you, Mary, from the bottom of my heart.

Once I realized that people who had perhaps never stopped by before might be reading, I really wished I could reprint all those entries I wrote in the first few months, that nobody (nobody but Mary, anyway) ever read. That would be pretty tedious, though, wouldn’t it? However, on my sweep through j-land this weekend, I have discovered that Scalzi’s assignment for this week has been to dig up your favorite entry in your own journal, and post a link to it. Okay….I can do that. Let me first say that I am NOT one for never going back and reading my own writing. I often spend an evening delving into my archives and perusing my old entries…trying to see if they still have any meaning, if they still resonate. If they look stupid now that I am, presumably, past the place I was in when I wrote them. I’ve found that I am inordinately proud of most of what I have written in my AOL journal. But here, I think, is probably one of, if not THE best, post I have made. Enjoy.

http://journals.aol.com/mlraminiak/ComingtotermswithMiddleAge/entries/495