Since about the end of July, I’ve been in a weird space when it comes to writing. Not one of those, “Nobody reads so I’m just not gonna write…hmph!” spaces. Nor yet suffering from a colossal case of writers’ block. Certainly not too busy to write (as if!) I just…didn’t want to. Aggressively. I think it was because I felt I had nothing to say. It crossed my mind that I may just have said everything. And to start saying it all over again would not exactly be a sterling example of the creative process at work. I've turned some kind of a corner, now. And have decided to...do what I'm doing. And it seems to be working.
But I
was in such an anti-writing state mid-year that I let the month of September go by
without even a terse acknowledgment of the tenth anniversary of “Coming to
Terms…” I only just noticed that
this morning—six weeks late. Pretty
lame. And I really do feel bad about it. Because this blog—this thing that I’ve
obsessed over, cast aside like an old rag doll and everything in between—is a good thing.
Do
I mean that the writing is good? Nah… I don’t know.
Maybe sometimes.
Or
that it tells a good story, however sketchy the writing might be? Probably not.
Too much angst, too much “let me out of my head” blather.
No…I
think it’s just a good thing for me. There’s history, here, of a great community of
which I was one of the (however reluctant) founding members. There’s a virtual paper trail of the
discovery of my personal voice as a
political ranter. There’s an album of my
blossoming love affair with digital photography. There is a diary of my spiritual journey.
There’s
me.
I am here.
And
I’ve been here for ten years. Which is
pretty much longer than I’ve done just about anything.
Ten
years.
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Thank
you all for reading.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
HB Coming To Terms
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Anniversary...!
Monday, September 24, 2007
Four
Thursday, September 28, 2008
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Coming To Terms is coming up on its
sixth birthday.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Since September 25th, 2003
Seven
years is a pretty long time to do anything.
HB, "CtT..."
From famine through feast and back again.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Awesome!
Ten years is a good long history to have in writing, and something to celebrate indeed! I for one appreciate your writing - often provocative and thoughtful.
ReplyDeleteYou have more lurkers than you know, and those who use RSS readers probably don't show up in "visit" counts.
ReplyDeleteI have found that writing (blogging) clarifies my thinking. I'm forced to put my thoughts to the test of logic. "Does this make sense?" Sometimes the thinking doesn't make it into the blog, but the thinking wouldn't have happened without the blog.
Blog for yourself, not for others. When anyone says they have nothing more to say, they really mean they don't think others want to hear/read it, but they themselves actually have plenty to mull. And even only one or two lurking readers keeps you honest with yourself.